30 Days of Truth - Day 4

Day 4 - Something you have to forgive someone for.

I need to forgive my mom for leaving me to fend for myself when I was 17 years old. Although realistically I probably wont be able to do that completely until the debt I accrued those first few years is completely paid off.

What happened was she was going through a mid life crisis and decided to move to Florida as soon as I graduated high school but I was not invited to move with her. Most of you think as she did not a big deal you where out of high school. But need to consider the other circumstances, I was only 17 (I have a late birthday), I didn't have a good job, I didn't have any family locally to move in with and she wouldn't sign off that I was an independent minor so I could get financial assistance for my college. So I had to find an apartment that would rent to a 17 year old, so as you can guess my rent was a bit higher than it would have been otherwise (can you blame them I'd want to cover my ass too). Find a job that would pay enough to cover my rent and insurance, then everything else went on credit. Between school and credit cards I was in debt for almost 15 grand in 2 years! By the time I was making enough to cover all my expenses it barely left enough for me to pay the minimum on my debt. It was so bad that I considered filing for bankruptcy at 20! Luckily I didn't.  But because of all of this I am now almost 30 and just now seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

But sorry this wasn't supposed to be about all that it's about the fact I need to forgive her for it.  But as you can see this is a long road to be able to forgive for and it doesn't help when she's still a flak and can't even manage to be around for big events of her only grandchild, he only gets baptized once, only has 1 first birthday, etc.

Bitter - Who me? No! Not at all...